Death of a Flower
I'm dove-like, but bleed to be blood rose red.
It hurts my petals, stems, leaves and roots.
Worn and crisp from the cruel times.
Pulsating as the scarlet liquid sputters its way through.
Roots burnt from exhaustion.
I think I'm about to fall apart.
The blood flows in and out of my stomata.
Make it stop because it hurts my fragile body so bad.
Wring me out and make me pure again.
Your Suicidal Thoughts
Your best friend is the noose outside; not me
Your higher power is the razor blade
You can't stop thinking of what you have become
Rampant thoughts of suicide
Reddening face; teary eyes
Why can't you end the life you've lived?
No courage is what your answer is
I couldn't help
But notice the pain in my shoulders
It's sore from you leaning on me
Clutch the anger and slam it up against the barrier
Express to it what you think
Maybe it will all vanish into thin air
I went to your funeral yesterday
Our friends were all there
I wish you wouldn't have wasted your life
You would still be here
But thinking no more suicidal thoughts
If you had just listened to me, myself and I
Starlette Skies
I feel like I have shattered hope
Shining starlette with no destination
Cerulean skies that tell a story
Amber moon with a slight bit of haze
Souls of deep perpetuality
Not enough sleep, but too much dreaming
Wishing that day would come when we know it all
Thinking of why everything is always crazy
Trifling hair & warped grins
Burning fields from matches of dereliction
The insanity tears me at all ends
Silence is the epitome of your life.
Alone
I look around and see smiling faces,
But none of them are smiling at me
Eyes ponder across me and we exchange a look
I feel coldness brush my face
I realize that it is only people walking by
Some smile, some frown and others don't even look at me
Just pass by like I'm invisible
Deep inside I'm crying with pain
Hole in You
Can I fill that desolent hole?
It grows and eats away at your soul
You laugh, but you are crying inside
What a fool you seem to be
That burning hole for that someone it burns
I want to be that someone that hole burns for
Star Child
I look at you and you are not there
You stare right through me like I'm translucent
Are you here or out in space?
Star child
Can you remember me?
I see your face so pale and blank
Sweet little space cadet
Drifting off to far lands, which I may never see
I ask you about them, but you act like I'm not talking to you
Yesterday, I saw a drawing on your desk
It was a little girl on a unicorn
She looked so happy and proud
Standing out from all the people who surrounded her
A smile was on her face
She looked like you
Is that you in your dimension?
My star child
Maybe that is how you spend your time
In that happy place
Happier than you are here with us
Come back
Where are you?
Answer me
Star child
I guess you are gone
I will leave you alone to your starry adventures
Please come back to reality to visit me
Nuclear Winter
Shining star
Purple skies that tell a story
Amber moon with a slight bit of haze
Tired people in their beds
Crazy place with no outlet
Scared and timid like a field mouse
The skies turn blue to orange
Loud and beautiful explosions fill it now
Screaming earth; all broken in pieces
Atomic bombs are their play toys
Time expires letting brains turn to mush
Sometimes you can see a blade of grass
Nuclear winter has set in
Scary people who can't eat a crumb
Nobody believes that this is really war
Silence
The silence is insanity
The feelings won't end
Tearing at my soul like a rusty hook
One look at the end
You shatter like glass
Temptations take over
You've lost all control
The silence is evil
Your soul is perpetual in all it does
The heartbeat is steady
It beats like a drum
Black carpet with scarlet bloodstains
Silence is the epitome of your life
No one can know
I can't remember what you did
Taking trespasses like candy from a baby
Dark Forest
Walk through the chilled night
Tempestuous embers of day remain
A pharmacy of eyes that look at you
Dance with the avenue of the winds
As the oak tree rustles with the season
Illumination of the brook is dazzling
Peaceful as the night crashes down
Hits your retinas with a grand delight
Currents of the darkness cool your soul
Rays of moonlight stream through the treetops
The night is still, but everything is moving
Waiting for you to move and follow the rhythm
Damn Infatuation
Why is it that infatuation is so mystical?
I wish I could coerce it where I could possess it forever.
So, I manage to always have it and would never fade away into love.
Love is just chemical and tasteless
But voracity is something that I intend on holding endlessly.
Jilted
Took it home on accident
You forgot I had it on, so did I
Washed it with out knowing
Smelled so clean
Washed you scent off it
It is so stiff now
Sewed the top
Where it was frayed
Do you want it back?
Communication broken or lost
I wish I knew what was wrong
Thought we has some chemistry
Now all I have is this
To jilt you by
There's no one to call
All because I think I'm done
I thought about this
Are we lost in denial?
What I'd do to see you smile
If I, Would You?
Slit my supple wrists to write your book with my blood
I think you'd fake my death
As an accident to keep your hand clean
Act like I never existed in your life
You walk past me on the streets of downtown
Like I was a ghost in the flames
If I handed you a knife & let you kill me
Would you grab the knife & cut my smile?
If I broke my glasses & threw them away
Would you help me walk upon the cracked sidewalk?
If I cut the brakes on my car & drove down the road
Would you stand & let me have a head on collision?
The zodiac is crying, dying in your arms
All you can do is laugh with your selfish face
Talking to yourself because no one is listening
Doing what they do
But no one shares the pain you do
So deep inside
The rhythm of your voice gives me chills
Virgin apple on a clean cut table
Peal the skin to deflower it's core
Cascading Poison
As I sit in despair
The bottle touches my lips
It courses, cascading my throat
Makes me perceive to be so free
Beautiful vile poison
One day I'll regret you
This time I celebrate you
It can induce you rotten
Completely relish this twinkle
Break my spirit again
It only lasts a flash in the pan
Frozen Heartbreak
The ice on my cold heart breaks for you.
Into tiny shards of despair & sorrow.
To live this journey without means death for that bit of care still left.
If I could die for you, I'd slit my wrist on your bed of misery.
I feel sick at heart.
Someone save me from the depths of my own caustic burning soul.
Because I need to save you, too.
Dysphoric Lofty Cherish
So undispensibly adhered to your soul.
Poisoned with a total anathema.
Quit treating people like dollar bills.
The tides can't hold my crawl to be in those eyes.
All the jade is gone away from my blindside.
The rearview mirror is clear now for us to drive.
So, make that left turn.
Just can't be out of pocket all the time.
Shaken by doubt piercing this opaque aura.
It's time to put on your poker face.
Pragmatic liaison of astute zeal.
Take a trip with me to fool's paradise.
We can trifle like the contessas & czars.
The House of Arcadism
There is a house on Lake Palestine,
They call the House of Arcadism.
It's been the ruin of this cute girl,
But I know it's euphorism.
Her mother is a stoner,
She smokes too much reefer.
Her father is no longer here,
He played his cards briefer.
The only thing Miss Nixxi needs
Is a damn kickass computer.
I think she's even satisfied
When she's really looter.
Oh, Nixxi, tell your damn self
Not to do act like the fascism.
Just spend your life online & drunken
In the House of Arcadism.
She's got one hand on the keyboard,
The other one has some booze.
Don't just go on back outside
To be so bored then lose.
There is a house on Lake Palestine,
They call the House of Arcadism.
It's been the ruin of this cute girl,
But I know it's euphorism.
My Perception is Broken
My lustic eyes fall so faltered on your outline
The pain burns like a rubber knife
Doesn't cut, but leaves a mark
Past aggressions just don't ever match this blistered atrocity
Just shatter the thoughts
So this night can be pure as snow
These inklings can't surpass the blithe tone I speak
Crackling lights flicker fast into your view
With stellar crashes from my gone worry spaceship
Everyone Involved
Kissing robots with rusted lips.
Escape the piercing, drowning mindfucks.
Talk terrible with Queens of Utopia.
Complete my soul in unknown fashion.
Drip your part into the cup of blatancy.
Every drip makes the whole being stronger.
These emotions are burnt like angry kindle.
The world is our empty playground.
Filled with betrayal & deceitful behavior.
Don't Fall Down
To be kindred with your own heart,
Takes too much time.
Eternal beauty of loathing.
Stand in his eyes like soldiers.
On the battlefield with those.
Wide-eyed trigger happy stares.
Stumbling through the tulips.
Fires Die Like Sleep
Embers bounce off the coals.
Once there was a fire here.
You dismal derigable of delight.
So tired, but can't slumber.
Insomnia makes you so damn numb.
Tempest Past Goodbye
Sounds filter out as you walk by.
Memories drip from your eyes.
You miss what you had.
Pieces break on the gloom terrace.
Screaming inside waiting to finish.
Time stands still as they look around.
Lunar lit horizon dotted with darkness.
Hateful, cold pauses worry the soul.
Leary, clean tendrils course the circle.
Hate from jealousy; not to be known.
Feasible without a doubt.
Fight with all that you have.
Fragmentary Silence
Vapid breath on hellbent disposition.
Uneasy slight touch makes shuddering.
Just let it happen like a sudden bite.
Tensing up isn't an option at the time.
Broken heart mended together.
Like glue on tempered glass.
Shards look like counterfeit new smiles.
Dizzy Up the Animosity
Valid when needed like a wet blanket.
Just set on a bursting blaze of confusion.
Spewing & spurting under your skin.
Some real basis & logic underlies.
Filled with absurd care & sensuality.
This touch is like many needles on skin.
Such a burning taste on the eyes.
Readjust & take in the pain.
Supple skin that is scared of what's ahead.
Broken grimaces & caustic stares ca't be hurt.
At this time they almost care.
Never been touched in such a way.
Making the soul crave more broken boundaries.
What an unknown astral tonight we surf.
Supernova of Us
Vacant sight, blistered hearing, shattered touch, smothered taste, null smell.
Girl so scarred & aimless.
Drowning ever so slowly in a sea of nothingness.
We quickly caused this broken cycle.
All because you wanted it to be right for you.
Counting the "He Loves Me Nots" endlessly.
While the petals blow away in the westward gust.
I can't help, but wonder how many strikes you gave me.
Before the dilemma met the solar rays of yesteryear.
Sullied into a thousand, tiny spectacles.
His ignorance to my everything made me die,
So slowly that I broke the hands of time.
On the Flipside
The dissonance has cleared
She screams like whitenoise
Understood that the world isn't as black
As the void that it was thought to be
Thorns have protected the rose far too long
The dire force field is cascading
Giving what is left sentiently to this
Healing the psyche feels just like utopia
Synapses flourish on the temporal
Mirror images to the chaos no more
Explosive Epiphany
My faith will never die as long as we are alive.
Calming every nerve that was jumping cautiously on my spine.
Burning flame eternal in our eyes.
There's no way that this world we swim in is even anyway close to ordinary.
Wrap those words around my brain.
Souls blinding walking down the halls with hands intertwined.
That pot of gold at the other side of the bleak, stupid rainbow,
Seems extremely far away if you stare that hard.
Never forget what it felt like to know the quiet things that no one ever really knows.
Turn the page in the story of our book to a clean slate to finish the rest for tomorrow.
Don't have any sympathy for the volcano erupting with my existance caught inside of it.
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